so i figured i should update, i still come on and check everyones posts, i just havn't had a very clear head and a good chance to update.

right now im not to sure how i feel, a little bit all over the place.

i know for sure that i am tired, drained and generally not feeling my best.

TONIGHT my boyfriend and i went for a walk, i saw my ex's car parked near my boyfriends place, he was obviously at practice for the night. Lame as, i didn't want to see him, i didn't want to deal with it, not tonight not tomorrow, not until i CAN deal with it without it breaking my heart even more.

I have not been able to stick to a full juice fast, but i have been going all day with just juice and a little bit of fruit, then getting home and having something not to bad, tonight i had a falafel and also a bit of vegan brownie.

Tomorrow im going to try go all day from now to tomorrow night on just juice, im going out for dinner with my bf and another couple, hopefully i can purge soon after eating because its gonna be a calorie filled meal. Maybe i can sneak off into the bathroom at the resturant. Hopefully i can stay strong. On saturday im going to stack up on juice supplies. Carrots, apples, bok choy, oranges, lemons, strawberries, ANYTHING that will juice!!!!

I was going to try get up early in the morning and go for a walk before i have to leave for work, but i think i might have to leave it for the afternoon when i get home and before i go to dinner.

Im still saving for my boob job, not sure how good im going, will have to check my savings account. Hopefully ill have it all ready in the next few weeks, wanting to get it done in September. Need to do some major workouts and fasting.

I need to write out a budget, i think i might do that now before i go to bed, sooo sleepy. tomorrow is gonna be a long day.

Heres some thinspo, i feel so self absorbed, i hope everyone who sees this benefits in some way as i do when i read your blogs.

love and peace.
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xox

waiting for my boyfriend to get here so we can go out. he is here. byeeee